Make it in awesome Australia :D

HELLO AUSTRALIA! :D

Sexy mommah posing.
All the kangaroos there ar, super poser wan yknow. Lol. Seriously.

Okay la so there's only one thing I can say so far.

Australia is freaking awesome possum lahhh. So typical of a Malaysian to sound jakun haha but what to do, it's true, the awesome part I mean.

I've been here 2 days now and I'm not liking the weather at all, basically because I'm Malaysian and hot sun & Malaysians are sorta synonymous, yknow? Haha :P Well it's super cold here lol. So, yeah, figures. Haha. It's about 14ish degrees in Sydney and it gets colder at night. It rained this afternoon in the Reptile Park, drizzled, stopped. Drizzled again, stopped again. It was like a kid playing with those flick-up-to-switch-on-flick-down-to-switch-off buttons. Crazy. Haha. But I thoroughly enjoyed myself today amongst the fat furry wombats :D I even saw a platypus! :DD Super cute lah. And echidnas!! I think they're the most adorable creatures of the spiky family :D Kangaroos and wallabys roamed freely which meant that their shit roamed freely too lol. They looked like cat shit, small and berketul, but varied in colour. There were brown ones and blackish ones but the most common would be olive green heaps. Wonderful. Not. Haha.

It's a mommah! Yknow how I know?? See see down there :D

Joey peeking out!! Freaking cool!!
I wanted to tag it as "Joey" but I realized this is not Facebook. LOL.

Yknow how they say we're descendants of gorillas? Yeah, I think this case different a bit HAHA.

I mean, c'mon! Look at the similarities. Lol!
Okay, cukup. He shy lah. Haha.

I really liked the whole setting of the park, had loads of greenery and it was sorta misty, and inthe afternoon the sun peeked out at times, so that meant that rays of sun could be seen streaming in and all these plus the comfortable cold weather (not contradicting myself, cos it's comfy if you're dressed well and I was, all warm & snugly. Actually just tights, shorts and hoodie lah lol) made the whole second day Australian experience really fantastic. Of course there were snake shows and oh oh Tasmanian Devils too!! And their show as well. They are incredibly cute with little intelligent beady eyes, staring into your soul. Okay, minus the soul part lol.



The koalas were just lazy asses haha though one had a baby clinging onto its mama so that was quite interesting to note and it compensated for their boringness hahaha. Crazy emu started chasing white kids all around the place haha but I was too big for it to handle so it ran away from me LOL. There was this emo white kangaroo too, acting all cranky. Later I post up pic of the emo kangaroo k lol. And as I appreciated the place and how well it was kept, I felt that it will defo take some time before we are up to their standard. I mean they really run the place so well, and all animals are very much looked after. Malaysia generally doesn't care two hoots about its animals and that is why the likelihood of veterinarians making it big or even surviving in Msia is so slim it's almost aneroxic.

We woke up at 10am today, left the abang's hse in Ourimbah at 11am and headed towards Gosford for the Reptile Park where we left at 3pm to balik to abang's kawans' hse. Picked up so fish & chips on the way. Got to meet many new ppl :) Very friendly and accommodating. Kor had to work from 5-9pm so he left with the gang and it was just Jess & I in the house. His laptop failed me, duno why no internet and mine was stuck in his house so I had nothing to do and the jet lag plus the lack of sleep finally caught up with me after the busy yet fun day. Wanted to crash on the couch and went in to let Jess know that I was tired and she offered her bed so I just konked. Woke up feeling bad for hogging her bed for 2hrs. Sorry & thanks, Jess!

The reason I was so dead tired was because I slept at 3am last night and woke up at 10am. Yesterday, woke up at 5.45am for the flight having only slept at 2am due to some VISA complication. Was on flight MH 141 for about 8 hours and I tell you, Malaysian Airlines is the way to go la. Maybe it's cos I don't fly around much so I'm not really used to the awesomeness of MAS haha. I mean, I enjoyed myself immensely yknow! Haha! Like I had such a great flight weih. Food was terrific, the nasi lemak I reckon is even better than some back home in Asia or smtg man. Pau-ed extra pillow cos no one on my left. Every single time I woke up, I'd find something pleasant on the tray in front of me. First time is was a Magnum Mini ice-cream, and I know, no big deal haha, but trust me, when you've just woken up from a nice sleep with a slight neckache, an ice-cream is just what you need to complete the just-woke-up feeling hahaha. Second time I found 2 sandwiches staring back at me just begging me to eat 'em haha. Tuna & zuchinni ;) Coolios.

Once I landed at the Sydney airport, bro was there in a red hoodie, beanie and jeans ready to pick me up and introduce me to Australia :) Headed off to the city centre about 15min away and had dinner at Seoul-Ria (yes, Korean food on the first day just minutes after Australia and I made acquaintance lol) which is a super popular makan place on George Street, the main street in Sydney. I reached at about 8pm so dinner ended about 10pm. Then, bro wanted to introduce me to his best friend, Max Brennan. Lol. Max Brennan is a chocolate shop by the way haha. So to Max Brennan Chocolat Shop we went and had perfumed-waffles with hot Belgium milk chocolate, defo one of the best around. You'll without a doubt want to enjoy that perfect combo on a cold winter night man ;) And it's not too costly too. Not those high class extremely pricey places. So I felt very satiated indeed ;) It was packed with ppl, as it was another popular place. So I guess it really helps to have ppl who know where 'the places to be' are cos you get great food and company. Like, you wouldn't wana hang out at Baker's Cottage when there're Murni's and William's and even Asia in 15 around, would you? :P Sooo, yeah, you need connections who have connections yaw ;)

Can you see our shadows? :DD

Well, if you're in Sydney, what must you go see? *Hears a chorus of "Sydney Harbour Bridge!" & "Sydney Opera House!"* Lol. So, that was our next stop. Snapped some pics of us in weird kung fu stances haha. Nearly died of the cold, with icicles on the tip of my nose and frost clinging to my eyebrows. Yeeeeaaahhhh... No, that didn't really happen. LOL. It's just that it was right next to the sea, so the wind was relentless and I was shivering my knickers of at 1am cos that's when we finally left for home lol.

Failed attempt haha.

I just realized I told my story backwards, started off with today and ended with yesterday lol.

I'd post pics up cos I have so many, but I'm lazy, like those koalas I saw in the park this afternoon HAHA. So, prolly tmw when I have more time ;)

It's 2.22am now Aussie time and it's time to sleep, mate. Haha. Tmw, time to do a leeetle shopping :D

Goodnight y'all!

Oh by the way, my brother has 2 pet mice!! Super cute weih! Actually there were 3, but one escaped and got eaten up by an iguana. Okay, it just escaped lah. I don't even know if iguanas are omnivorous lol. One's grey & white and the other's honey coloured & white :)

Make it so pointless

I just got an alert from Facebook in my email saying that I have a friend request.

I looked at the name. I wanted to click to read, then I LOOKED at the name again. I mean, REALLY looked.

Rachel Chang added me as a friend on Facebook.

For a mo, I thought I actually did something weird like pressed something wrong when I was last on Facebook. Then I was like, even if I did press something wrong, can someone actually add their ownselves??

Confirm cannot right. But for a minute I really considered the bizarre notion that I did add myself LOL.

So I clicked on her profile, ya lah of course not me lah but my point is, she added me just because we have the same name.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Hello?? So pointless lah, gosh. She's from Taiwan. Even more pointless, because I don't approve anybody I don't know or have not met face to face.

So, ignore!!

Make it a sunny day

Yeah, I know, what a strange title seeing as it's currently night time now lol.

So the A Levels Graduation Ball was awesome, superb, really great, in my opinion. 70% because of the fact that everybody that mattered was there so the company was just amazing, though some couldn't make it. 30% because it was planned really well etc.

The event went smoothly, though with a few minor glitches, for example during my classmate's performance, so she had to play the piano impromptu while singing the acoustic version of Pokerface. She nailed it by the way.

The people were just fantastic. My whole table number 7 was full of PL2 and we had great fun together :) Dance floor is awesome when you're dancing with great company, and in my case, it was happening man with my whole class :) Songs were good, food not too bad, and overall a really good event :)

Great job, student council Jan 09 ;)
Definitely a job well done.

I'll be leaving for Australia on Friday morning to visit the brother. Am really looking forward to it now that I can actually look forward to it haha. I mean, before this there were just so many things going on that sorta dampened my mood for Aus. Like my finals just finished then prom then other events that were important. So now, I can finally have the time and mental capacity to look forward to it haha. Fun stuff ;)

Pray I do not get swine flu lol as Australia is hit really badly, particularly Melbourne.
I'm of course mostly looking forward to the zoos there! Can't wait. Shopping, depends on the availabilty of cash haha. Weather, it's winter now, so not really happy about that but at the same time I don't really mind it. I'll be flying back with my bro and we'll be back on tanah air Malaysia on July 1st :)

As for these few days in between, well, it's packed, and that's the way I like it yknow. To have a plan for everyday so that I make full use of my hols :) Tmw's Ikea and an awesome plan's already brewing for Wed :D Thurs is gona be a fun & informative day which is cool. And then I'm off to the land down under.

Can't wait for this week to unrevel itself ;)

Make it my very own abang Chang

Having a big brother is just so.... Wonderful :):))

Sure, there's the fighting & hair-pulling & sore throats from screaming at each other, but trust me, that ends when both siblings reach their youth. Actually it really only happens when they're small. After that, you really appreciate the existence of the other. You care for each other. You love each other. You rely on each other. The only kin you have once your parents pass on. And yeah, sometimes you don't really see eye to eye or you get reprimanded by yr older sibling, but then that's just how life is. You can't be up up up all the way.

I guess I never realized how time passed me by, how I failed to see how my abang of 22 years has grown into a matured (I hope, haha! I'm spoiling it lol) person. Failed to notice how he gained experience from his life and based his advice on them. How wise his thinking is sometimes. I guess I used to see him last time as just a brother, there in my life as just another Chang. But never really sought advice or asked him his opinion or asked for his help. I'm relating all these of course, to matters of great importance and not just about frivolous stuff like his opinion on clothes etcetc.

No doubt, the many many miles between us these past few years have indeed affected our communication. I figure that if he had still been in Malaysia, the changes I saw in him yesterday wouldn't haven been such a revelation. It's probably because we don't speak on a daily basis and when we do on the phone, it was for short periods or time, talking about friends and shopping and the weather and other everyday stuff. But the call yesterday, and the events leading up to it, really made me feel like, wow, my kor is so caring. Like, why didn't I really see this before? Maybe I just wasn't looking hard enough ;)

Few weeks leading up to my A2 exams, he would ask my mom when my exams were so he could pray for me. He asked me through Facebook when the exact dates of my exams were and what subjects so he could keep track. And he texted on the 4th of June to check up on me. My AS Econs essay was on 5th June.

"Hello hello :) how were the 1st 2 papers? You're pretty good at Law yeah? How do you feel about tmw? Been praying for you and I'm sure He will see you through with the desired results. Just hang on tight and enjoy the ride! Lol and study properly also la."

I didn't reply cos I was chanting loads and loads of Econs facts, trying to force them to stick in my brain lol. But the text made me feel loads better :)

A week went by and it was soon time for my A2 Econs essay paper which was yesterday, 10th (Wed). The time to enter the MPH in Taylor's came and went and I survived the traumatising ordeal of not knowing what questions would come out and if I could do them and if I should do 25 mark questions etcetc. The next day, today (Thurs), was my AS Econs MCQ paper, so it wasn't as important as yesterday's cos yesterday's is like insane, so many things to memorize, just a lot a lot of notes and all. I took the whole of Tuesday to do more chanting to get all my A2 facts in my head and was holed up in my room, memorizing like a crazy retarded nut haha.

He called last night at 10.30pm Malaysian time cos he wanted to ask me how I was doing before the big paper the next day. Actually he got the dates mixed up. He thought the next day, today (Thurs), was the big A2 essay paper. Padahal, that afternoon itself I had already sat for the A2 paper. So, what I'm trying to say is, it's so cool that God does this weird things, like how he mixed up the dates, cos if he did not, and if he called on the eve of my real A2 essay exam, I wouldn't have been able to talk to him for 2 hours cos I would need the time to go memorize and.. memorize.

But instead, he called yesterday night and we managed to talk about everything, my babbling on and on about all my present worries and not knowing what I should do and telling him what I thought about the future if things didn't work out and just everything that was on my mind. I could finally unload to my sibling. Yeah, I have my parents and in fact I unloaded to them last week too haha. But I guess nothing beats telling and getting advice from an older youth, yknow?

I'm a worrier. And I'm a perfectionist. So, that's not a really good combo. If things don't go how I want them to, or how I visualize them to in the future, I start to worry. Excessively. Worry and worry and worry. Blablabla. How if I don't... What if this happens.. And then like that how... If tak jadi then... and so on. I think and think and think too much and get very negative at times. And because of all these, I forget that there's a Master at work that actually already knows what's gona happen. And He knows the best for me. All I have to do is stop believing the father of lies and start trusting Him. And be patient and see how things unfold instead of speculating with thousands of what ifs. And so this is where abang's maturity comes in. He puts things into perspective. To assure and lemme know that, hey, if tak jadi, tak jadi lah, it wasn't His will. You tried your best. There's a different plan for you.

The whole convo last night was very assuring and comforting and I realized that my brother is a very caring person. And that he loves me a lot. My fears, my cares, my worries just came tumbling out, each competing to have dominance over the other. And abang tried to talk things over and advice. After the depressing an hour or so talk, we started talking about Australia and every other fun things, friends, current happenings, zoos. I guess we all need someone close to talk to sometimes, and if mine can't be with me now, Imma go to him haha. Next week kor, next week ;)

Yes, this is a long post, but I guess this is me unloading again ;) Lol.

After the convo, a text came in from him saying :

"Good catching up lil sis! Deep down I know you can do it so fret not, keep your head up and go through them the best you can. Final 50m in the 400m! You can see the ribbon ahead, just gotto touch it. If you need inspiration, think of Messi, had growth problem due to hormonal issues and gave everything up to get treatment in Spain. See where he is today in Barca. And of course, our Lord and Saviour who holds your world in His palms and wants the best for you, His lil sheep :) "

Hahaha, Messi ;) The last words, I felt, were really cute and held a lot of meaning, one, because if you didn't know, Rachel means ewe, female sheep, so that's really cute, and two, because I remembered then that He is our Sheperd and we are His sheep and He will take care of every lil sheep of His ;)

"You need to believe. All the winners you see, always believe."
"Everyone needs a dream. You need a dream."

Thanks for listening to all my blablablas and yadayadayadas, kor :)
Love you much :):))

And when we fly back, we will be Changs on a plane! Hahahah yes, very random lol, something created by Ju-Hann haha. Reminds me of Snakes on a Plane, the movie lol.

My whole life I place in Your hands

God of mercy, humble I bow down

In Your presence at Your throne


Can I truly mean every sentence I sing? Especially the first one?



I find it so hard to sing this song, especially the first line of this verse, yet it speaks to me greatly.

It's literally dealing with faith & trust, placing your whole life in His hands.

Can you do it?
Can I do it?

I don't know. But I know that I need to.

I find it so hard, especially right now in my life.





Falling on my knees in worship

Giving all I am to seek Your face

Lord, all I am is Yours


I want to fall, oh God, how I want to.
I want to give all I am too, but it feels so difficult.
Can I be absolutely His? All of me? All that I am? In this current time?
I want to. I need to. I'm trying.

Make it something that crushes you

Contract Law was okay.

Tort Law was okay.

Sociology was. I don't know what to say. It was hard. But that's not just it.

I sincerely hope I do not lose my A but I think it's very likely that I may.
The questions were harder this time round and I really did misinterpret one essay question. And therefore, I probably lost more marks than I ever have before.
I'm not just all talk yadayada but actually did pretty okay and confirm A. I really do think I did badly for this paper. And. I can't even begin to think what grade I may get. Please oh please, I hope my AS grade will be able to pull this one up. Hopefully the A2 grade will be pullable even. It may be so low that the AS still can't help me get an A.

I am absolutely not exaggerating. When I realized what the answer demanded of me after the paper (asking Mrs Ng etc), I was crushed so bad it was even worse than finding out about the big freaking hole in my prom dress (refer previous post).

I hate misinterpreting things and this time I really did terpesong. I didn't give the answer that was needed. Not even close. 2nd time d. Last time was Econs. This time, I really did that one essay out of point. I feel like such a. Failure of some sort.
I can just see my A flying away. I am in quite a distressed state right now.